Archive for August, 2008

depression

As I was sitting patiently (yes I was patient after waiting for about a week for the goddamn SSS system to be fixed) while munching on chips and reading a local newspaper, I came across this column, JokeBox (Sun Star Cebu August 07, 2008 issue; page B4). For the day they were featuring fractured wisdom. I read something which will make the reader crack up I guess. Though I did manage to stifle a laugh, the joke actually got stuck in my head. “Depression is merely anger without any enthusiasm.” So true, isn’t it? Around an hour or two later I looked up to see this woman wearing a green shirt with the phrase, “Love has failed me.”

Okay.

Is everyone out to get me or something? What is this? Do they have to rub it in?! Inwardly I sighed. It’s no use being peeved at something so trivial.

You know what? I was indeed aggravated although it was overshadowed by the fact that I finally got my static information sheet after a really long wait. Like a six-day wait dammit! Screw this. Like I said, I’m much too tired to write about something of value. And just for the record, I usually have a perfectly good reason for my emotional outbursts. Although the reason comes a bit after I have calmed down and realized what I have done.

Again, I’ll leave with a stanza from Boys Like Girls’ first single, Hero / Heroine:

I never thought that you could break me apart. I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart

tired

i have been incognito for like a month now i guess. i’m too tired to write anything, too frustrated to even think straight…

i thought of this song just now. dunno if it’s appropriate for what i’m feeling.

to let go or not to let go? that is the question.

Here In My Heart
Diane Warren

Sometimes there’s a time you must say goodbye
Though it hurts you must learn to try
I know I’ve got to let you go
But I know anywhere you go
You’ll never be far
‘Cause like the light of a bright star
You’ll keep shining in my life
You’re gonna be right

Here in my heart
That’s where you’ll be
You’ll be with me
Here in my heart
No distance can keep us apart
Long as you’re here in my heart

Won’t be any tears falling from these eyes
‘Cause when love’s true love never dies
It stays alive forever
Time can’t take away what love we had
I will remember our time together
You might think our time is through
But I’ll still have you

Here in my heart
That’s where you’ll be
You’ll be with me
Here in my heart
No distance can keep us apart
Long as you’re here in my heart

I know you’ll be back again
And ’till then
My love is waiting

Here in my heart
That’s where you’ll be
You’ll be with me
Here in my heart
No distance can keep us apart
Long as you’re here in my heart

Here in my heart
That’s where you’ll be
You’ll be with me
Here in my heart
No distance can keep us apart
Long as you’re here in my heart