Archive for October, 2007

versatile…i am not

{ October 17, 2007 @ 8:26 am } · { Solitude }
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I always thought its easy to weasel my way out of things. Versatility is one of my strong points. Or so I thought…
 
Falling in love is an easy feat. You take one good look at the person. if he’s an eye candy then its the start of infatuation. If you start to get to know him and discover his finer qualities and matches your “things i like in a guy” list, you open your heart a bit. If he’s beginning to return your feelings, you go ahead and take the plunge without looking where you leap. With all the excitement, with all the blood rushing through my veins, with all the endophins filling me with such inexplicably wonderful feelings I forget to ask myself a very important question. Did he catch me when I fall?

And now that you took the fall, bruises and all when do you think it’s time to move on? To let go? when the person you love doesn’t love you anymore? No. You let go when the pain you feel is greater than the love you give.

So this is the part where I’m taking versatility off my list of superb qualities. Because as time goes by, I realize that weaseling my way out of falling in love is definitely NOT an easy feat.

cRuSheD

{ October 8, 2007 @ 10:37 am } · { Solitude }
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Have you tried listening to love songs especially those that remind you of someone close to your heart? Makes you think things over right? It’s like openning a slowly healing wound and pouring disinfectant over it and yet you still smile to the world so he would always think you’re all right.

Have you ever tried sharing Ne-Yo’s sentiments?

And I’m so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I’m so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can’t I turn off the radio?

Have you ever tried staring into space for so long you can’t see anything but that one special person whose face you can never forget?

Have you ever tried drinking into a stupor just so you can forget even for a second the pain that you are feeling?

Have you tried watching horror movies to stop yourself from breaking down but still in the middle of the movie, in the middle of all that bloodshed, you shed nothing but tears?

Have you ever tried shopping with friends to get your mind off things but at the end of the day, amidst all the shopping bags and new clothes you still feel your heart breaking?

I have tried almost everything just so I can forget but when it hits you, it hits you bad.

Nothing hurts you more than the sudden realization that the person who means the world to you, the keeper of your heart no longer loves you.

Crushed. That’s what I feel. After everthing is done. After everything wasn’t enough, it’s best not to feel anymore but crushed.