Archive for March, 2007

the not so great day…

if anybody sees me with black clouds over my head let me warn you, run to the opposite direction. i am absolutely fatal today but not the foaming-in-the-mouth kind of fatal. just the i’m-so-pissed-i-can-strangle-somebody kind of fatal. somebody once asked me what makes me pissed off and i was having a hard time answering that simple question. but if anyone asks me now, i’d say i’d get pissed when a cloud of uncertainty, hence the dark clouds above my head, is turning my world upside down. that’s right. upside down. that explains the butterflies in my stomache except they aren’t really butterflies but actually my insides being turned upside down. (swears incoherently) i am not making sense anymore.

inhale…

exhale…

This breathing excercise is not helping at all. I want to hurl something or hurl at something just so i can lash out. However, let’s try that again, shall we?

Inhale…

Exhale…

Not helping! somebody kill me now… (knocks on wood)3x

to err is human…

I screwed up big time yesterday and now I shall pay the consequences of my actions tomorrow…

And I don’t particularly like the events that happened today. I just don’t. Damn it.

Damn you…

lee and fee…got it?

mariefel: hey stranger!

maria lippie: (looks at mariefel dully) you screeched? (laughs at the stricken look on mariefel’s face) what’s up fee?

mariefel: how many times do i have to tell you?! do NOT call me fee!!!

maria lippie: (laughing hysterically)

mariefel: fine. i’ll call you lee then.

maria lippie: that’s fine with me. (sighs)

mariefel: okay. out with it.

maria lippie: out with what?

marifel: you have been staring at the exact same spot for thirty minutes. let me tell you babe, staring into space is sooo last century. it’s either you shave your head or flashing some paparazzi and because i know you are a goody goody then you’ll have to settle for shaving your head.

maria lippie: you’re crazy!

mariefel: so not!

maria lippie: i don’t have the money for a ritzy rehab like britney.

mariefel: then talk to me. my services are for free.

maria lippie: how is your Irish hottie by the way?

mariefel: still Irish. (snaps) Stop changing the subject!

maria lippie: god you’re a pushover. I don’t know why i put up with you.

mariefel: that’s because you need me you twit! now out with it.

maria lippie: i screwed up okay! happy now?! and don’t ask me what happened. you were there.

mariefel: yes. i was sitting in one corner wishing you’d make the right decision. when are you going to stop this lee? when you’re old and gray and you’re filled with too much remorse?

maria lippie: no. of course not. can’t you tell i’m trying?

mariefel: yeah i can tell but please make it soon. i don’t know how much you can take.

maria lippie: i know. this ends now.

mariefel: (snorts) yeah right.

maria lippie: can you a least be a little supportive?

mariefel: i will if i can see a little progress.

maria lippie: (yells) fine!

mariefel: fine! why are you yelling?!

maria lippie: you’re unbelievable! (stomps away)

mariefel: this is the second time that you walked out on me. don’t think i’m taking this lightly, young lady! (shakes head) kids these days…

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mariefel: hey! what’s with the long face?

maria lippie: i am putting on my “do-not-interrupt-me” face so shoo and bother someone else.

mariefel: oohhh…someone’s bitchy today.

maria lippie: yeah. so what? my life sucks so why should i be smiling?

marifel: (closes her eyes then opens them to peer at a crystal ball which magically appeared out of nowhere) i see you meeting a long-ago acquaintance –

maria lippie: (interrupts in a bored tone) if you are predicting the future, too late. it already happened.

mariefel: (perks up) oh yeah? so who did you meet?

maria lippie: i’m not telling. my lips are sealed, zipped!

mariefel: oh come on. do tell!

maria lippie: if you know me well enough than you can tell.

mariefel: (scratches chin while looking at ML closely) the signature far away look in your eyes, the bitchy attitude and heartbreak etched all over your face. i see… (switches to serious mode) so i wager you saw him yesterday?

maria lippie: (sighs) yeah. no biggie. i was just taken aback. it has been a while…

mariefel: damn! i should have been there.

maria lippie: where were you by the way?

mariefel: uhm… do you want ice cream?

maria lippie: don’t you dare change the subject. where the hell were you yesterday?

mariefel: (giggles) i was out somewhere with an Irish hottie.

maria lippie: no way!

mariefel: yes way…

maria lippie: (stomps her feet and walks away while shouting…) Am i the only one with no friggin’ love life?

mariefel: (rolls on the floor laughing like she’s on crack)