leepee’s misadventures…

mariefel: peekaboo!

maria lippie: (shrieks) jumping fiddlesticks! you scared me. where did you come from?

mariefel: (laughs evilly) from your worse nightmare, you dimwit.

maria lippie: (rolls eyes)

mariefel: sooo…..i know what you did yesterday.

maria lippie: (frowns in confusion)

mariefel: so you want the whole world to know what you did yesterday?

maria lippie: (huffs) oh shut it you!

mariefel: (rolls on the floor laughing)

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maria lippie: we are going out of town tomorrow. (dances a happy jig)

mariefel: (joins with the dancing) oh, oh. where to? where to?

maria lippie: (stops dancing) who says you’re coming?

mariefel: (hands on hips) do i have to go over my “i am you and you are me” speech?

maria lippie: (rolls eyes and gives up) to alcoy.

mariefel: i heard they have very nice beaches up in the north coast. coolness! i am so getting a tan.

maria lippies: newsflash. you are already tanned.

mariefel: oh. (frowns as realization dawns into her) dang!

mariefel: congratulations on a job well done last night, my friend. me thinks she was glad.

maria lippie: (grins sheepishly) yeah. i couldn’t do it without you though.

mariefel: (grins evilly) i bet you were wishing he was there last night.

maria lippie: what? who?

mariefel: oh don’t play dumb. are you forgetting that i am you and you are me?

maria lippie: what?

mariefel: (rolls her eyes) puhlease…

maria lippie: you scare me sometimes…

mariefel: so you admit it?

maria lippie: admit what? that I or you or we are actually having a conversation? and that we are actually one and the same person?

mariefel: that is so out of the context, my friend.  

maria lippie: (hums a tune)

mariefel: why are you humming?

maria lippie: because i feel like it. why are you still here?

mariefel: you can’t get rid of me easily…

maria lippie: i need help. immediately. how do i get rid of another me?

mariefel: uh…kill yourself?

maria lippie: (mutters to oneself) suppress violent actions….

Today marks the day I conquered my fear.

Did I ever mention that I hate blood and needles? Well I do. (insert shudder here) We had our medical check up today so we have to undergo xrays and blood tests. I had to restrain myself from calling my mom. The last time I had my blood tested was when I was a kid and I was crying like crazy. I almost cried today. Almost. My friends were there to support me. While I was waiting for my turn, my chest hurt so much with trying to even out my breathing. I was pale and I was so cold with fear. And I just had to see my friend cry. (Damn you Mona Lisa!) But when finally it was my turn, I didn’t shed a tear. I didn’t even feel the slightest pain. Maybe I did but it was just so minuscule compared to the pain I was anticipating. Before I knew it, it was over. And I was a changed man —girl —woman–whatever. (pwede both?)

In anticipation there is fear, in acceptance there is wisdom. Just like in life, whenever changes are made, whenever something threatens to destroy the routine we are having, we dig our heels and prevent it from taking place because we are afraid of what happens in the future. Little do we know that when we actually welcome change and accept change, we realize it’s not so bad after all.

Summer came and left without a warning
All at once I looked and you were gone
And now you’re looking back at me
Searching for a way that we can be like we were before

Now Im back to what I knew before you
Somehow the city doesnt look the same
Id give my life for one more night
Of having you here to hold me tight; oh, please
Take me there again
Oh, oh

Chorus
And I remember how you loved me
Time was all we had until the day we said goodbye
I remember every moment of those endless summer nights

I still recall the walks along the beaches
And the way your hair would glisten in the sun
Rising in the afternoon
Making love to you under the moon, oh

Do you remember all the nights we spent in silence
Every single breath you took was mine
We can have it all again
Say that youll be with me when the sun brings your heart to mine
Oh, oh

Chorus
And I remember how you loved me
Time was all we had until the day we said goodbye
I remember every moment of those endless summer nights

Theres only so much I can say
So please dont run away from what we have together
Its only you and me tonight
So lets stay lost in flight
Oh, wont you please surrender

Chorus
And I remember how you loved me
Time was all we had until the day we said goodbye
I remember every moment of those endless summer nights…

blah blah blah

imagine life without nosy people. peaceful.

imagine life without roses and chocolates. no valentine’s day.

imagine life with the birds and the bees. no love.

imagine life without money. famine.

imagine life without me. chaos.

what’s the point? wla lng..way mgbuot.

I was just browsing through redblooded woman’s blog and I came across Paris Hilton’s video and the music just got stuck inside my head…

So I was thinking to myself when you passed me by
“Here’s what I like”
And you were with somebody else but you can’t deny
That’s me in your eye

Do you know
What it’s like
When it’s wrong
But it feels so right?

“kung hindi mo pa to na-gets, ewan ko na sa’yo!“

on my way to work, while attempting to cross the street, I stood in the sidewalk waiting for all them vehicles to settle down. so i just stood there staring into space. i seem to do that a lot lately. i so need to have myself checked and no, not from just any diseases but to see if i have a mental illness because i’m pretty convinced i have. so anyway, i stood there until people unknowingly bumped into me because i was in there way. and i was like, “hey, a simple excuse me would suffice.” I didn’t really say that. Did i mention i am positively the meekest person when i am alone? well, i am and i hate it! I’m straying from the topic which is–what again? oh yeah. see I AM out of it…