Archive for November, 2006

everything in exaggeration…

I do everything in exaggeration. I do. I am such a drama queen. Just this morning I had one of those dreams wherein you wake up wanting for more. More of what, you may ask? More of hand holding and cuddling, quiet walks in the park and all that shit…need I say more? See? I told you I am drama queen. Who in their right mind would dwell so much on one stupid dream? Apparently me…

To dream that you are holding hands with someone, represents your connection with that person. Your dream may also reflect anxieties about losing touch with him/her or that you are drifting apart.

They couldn’t  have said it any better. Too much angst. Too much longing. Gag me!!!

So that must be the reason for my shitty morning apart from the whining kid who made me want to be a vegetarian…so details, details. On my way to work, riding a very chic, very elegant tricycle, I heard somebody cry. So I frantically looked for the person in question only to find out that it was a baby goat (or kid) wrapped in a sack and strapped to a motorcycle crying profusely! I feel for the creature you know. I feel for all those four legged animals (or two legged animals. I don’t want to exclude the chicken. I had a pet rooster once and I loved him with all of my young heart. Bless his soul.) butchered and served for dinner on fancy plates. Gah! My heart bleeds. But then again… Who wants to eat carrot sticks for dinner? So all that “kid” has is my pity. I’m sorry but I can’t just let go of my carnivorous ways.

 P.S. Anybody who wants to hear a story about David, my pet rooster, just holler back at me…

dreaming of eels as sea snakes…how weird is that?

Last Monday, I had this dream of finding a sea snake and having it as a house pet. When I woke up and while the dream was still playing in my head, I realized that what I saw in my dream was actually an eel and not a sea snake. Personally, I prefer snakes over eels any day….I could not understand though how I find the sight of eels revolting when they actually look quite a bit like snakes. Well, that’s just me.

 Anyway, I was curious of this eel dream so I did a little research. Here’s what I found out.

To see an eel in your dream, indicates that you have issues with commitment. It also means that you have problems holding on to things.

So I have a problem holding on to things?! It’s not my fault that I have a short attention span. Here’s another interpretation…

If you dream that you cannot hold onto a slippery eel this augers ill for your fortunes as they will slip away from you. If you dream of seeing a dead eel this shows that you will overcome all your enemies, and an eel in clear water shows excellent luck and fortune.

The funny thing was I did not see me grabbing that “sea snake” and taking it home. The next thing I know, I had it in our medicine cabinet! And it was alive and kicking…not that eels can kick but…you know what I mean. I did saw that eel in clear water so that should mean I will be having excellent luck and fortune. Ding! Reality check. Checked!

I told my dad about this dream and I rather have a quirky interpretation of it. I told him it’s time to buy me a pet snake at last. (albino boa constrictor please….) He just did his signature brows-drawn together frown slash tight smile. *insert wistful sigh here….

breathe…

It doesn’t come as a shock whenever i feel that the walls are closing in on me making breathing almost impossible. this happens just once in a month. whether i’m lying on my bed in the middle of the night or in the middle of a huge crowd. it doesn’t matter. when i feel alone i feel alone. it’s like everything in my life has taken its toll (good or bad, wrong or right) the only remedy i can think of is breathing. Burn oxygen, give out carbon dioxide. it’s a vicious cycle. it keeps me both alive and sane.

xoxoxoxo

i miss you…

there. i said it already. are you happy now?

that is me. talking to myslef. again. i noticed i’m getting more neurotic by the day when i’m suppose to mature… but damn i miss him. like i miss the sun when the whole world is drenched in rain.

does it kill you to at least speak to me? does it take much of your time to call or text back or even be in the same breathing space with me?! i don’t think so. then why are you ignoring me?!